by: Richelle Torres
Why Me, Why Am I Here?
by Jay Bruner, Senior Pastor
What if God has detoured you for a reason?
“It’s cancer, and you need to come to see me.” I’ll never forget when Regina heard those words from the doctor upon receiving the pathology report. We were so optimistic it was nothing, then we heard it was more, much more. We asked ourselves, “Why me, why am I here?”
When going to the doctor’s office to learn the journey ahead, we parked, took a deep breath, and proceeded to head into the office. As we walked up to the front door, a car had pulled up to drop off a patient. As we approached the passenger side, we encountered a woman trying to move her husband move from the car to a wheelchair (that was now required to help the ailing man to his treatment). It was apparent that it was a struggle, so I jumped in to help. Once in the wheelchair, I told his wife that we’d take him in while she parked. We then wheeled him inside the lobby waited with him for his wife to come in. As we did, we struck up a conversation. His name was Tony, and he was very kind and appreciative of the help. The more we talked, I came to understand he had been a very well-traveled, motorcycle riding, robust “man’s man” who had seen his life decimated by cancer.
It was hard to see such a man now reduced to a frail, disease-ridden, totally dependent person. His wife soon joined us, and we continued to talk. I let them know I was a Pastor, then Regina and I, along with Tony’s wife, surrounded him and engaged in a season of prayer.
It began a relationship whereby Regina and I would visit him in the hospital and build a relationship with his wife, Barbara. In the course of that brief season, Tony would find his relationship with the Jesus that loved him. Within a few months, Tony would finally succumb to cancer, and I would officiate his funeral. There I met many of his friends and family. Barbara is still a friend today and attends CPC.
I have come to understand that sometimes the detours we encounter are not about us. They are about someone who needs our Lord, and He will take us on journeys for that purpose.
I’m not saying that God gave Regina cancer for the purpose of seeing Tony come to know the Savior; however, I can say that when we are available, He can use any detour that comes our way for His glory.
It reminds me that the vast majority of miracles that Jesus performed occurred during an interruption, or detour, to His mission and ministry. Maybe the question is not “Why me, and why am I here?” but rather “Lord, what do you need me to do here and for who.”